Okay, first of all, I would like to sincerely apologize for not reading this beautiful piece before, and also I would like to thank everyone for literally pushing me into reading it. If it werent fo you guys, I would just leave it in like 2017 and read other Key VN’s before planetarian.
This is going to be a huge emotional bomb that will represent my true honest feelings toward the VN itself and the characters, everything is my opinion so Im sure a lot of people might disagree.
I will be mostly focusing on the emotional impact, as well as on the characters and how it felt being with them at that time.
Ill be using a lot of spoilers since this post will be mostly oriented on that.
So the first Impression of Planetarian… to be completely honest was really confusing, all I got to know was the background story, some rainy sounds and some story about Planetarium.
At first I thought this is going to be trash, boring story that I just have to go and read because of sake of Kaza community, and Key… BUT it turned out that it was written in a style I actually like.
I was approximetely an hour into planetarian when I realised I was actually enjoying myself and the story was good.
The only thing that annoyed me throughout the whole story was the endless talking of Yumemi’s spoiler, her apologizing etc. but Ill get to that again since it connects to one of my main points.
Now… the emotions…
Where do I begin oh jesus.
As we all know the ending of the planetarian is not really a happy ending, that I wished for, but instead its one of the most painful things to see. For me seeing Yumemi being torn apart, yet still trying to talk was just…painful I could not read half of the text because I cried so much.
The emotional impact on me wasnt’t because of the scene itself, BUT because there is already some kind of connection/bond to the character, which I dont want to lose. And so the “Mr. Customer” did not want to lose for sure too…
Okay this is the part where It will seem like Im exaggerating, ya know me.
The moment when Yumemi got hit, right in that very moment, all of the things that they went together flashed before my very own eyes, goosebumps all over my body, saying "Please, no, just be alright dont do this to me…"
Everything that happened, every memory of her that I remembered made me even more sad. The worst thing for me was when we got to know what happened 30 years ago, leaving her in the planetarium. SHE WAS FUCKING ALONE THE WHOLE TIME. LIKE… to me this is just too sad. I just couldnt look at her face for a moment. Okay people might be saying, but shes a robot bla bla… No in the end she was fully concious that people would not return to her because of the War and thus hypothisized that shes broken.
Look I tend to put myself into other people’s shoes, and this is why it probably hit me even more, when I imagined how the “Mr Customer” must have felt. IN THIS FUCKING WORLD OF NOTHING, Mechs everywhere trying to fucking kill you, not almost a single human being alive, you find her. Like okay, this might be not true, but I deeply believe, that the Mr Customer was fucking happy that she could have met her and hold onto these silly conversations. IN THIS WORLD OF NOTHING, YOU CAN ACTUALLY SPEND SOME TIME TALKING TO SOMEONE. And then- you lose even that. (if it was me I would be emotinally torn apart and couldnt move). DONT TELL ME THIS IS NOT SAD. I just could not stand the fact Key did this. The emotions were overwhelming me at this point. I had to take a little break.
But guess what, there is even my inner connection to Yumemi.
As much as I didnt want to admit it, Yumemi was a bit annoying… but… okay ill say it. One of the reasons why it was so annoying to me, was because she reminded me of my past self. I was literally like Yumemi… I know I know “but you cant be like a robot” bla bla, but my behaviour was so similiar to her that I found a sister in her. This was my own feelings being implemented into her, and everytime she said “what does that mean” or just simply began to talk happily over things, I could not stop but remind me of my past, little weak self… That’s why I was really, really, really sad when she got striked down. I think it was my first time I could relate to a fictional character this much (I know this might not make sense to you guys, but to me it was real emotions, im being completely honest.)
And I guess that is everything I wanted to share with you guys. Im happy I could read this VN, even though I spent 3 hours of crying.
Sorry for the long post, I hope I dont get much hate for sharing my honest feelings.