As soon as I noticed in little letters under the Youtube upload that Shirane wrote “I present you the most confusing song ever to translate”, I swallowed hard…
This song is… Interesting. When I read the notes above the upload, I initially thought it wouldn’t connect all that well to the earlier entries, since it had been released prior to Love Song. However, it’s clear to me that this song contains a number of the same recurring patterns as previous songs. The emphasis on dreams, a sentimental singer stuck revisiting his/her past, winter/cold used to represent an unfortunate or tragic situation (like it did in Track 3), it connects very well. I’m not 100% sure on this directly following up on track 9, though…
The singer uses “we” a lot in this song and, since the tense is a bit hard to follow, it seems like he’s referring to his loved one in the present tense. “Someday, we’ll realize, we will realize someday / how ridiculous I am.” This is just following a line where he talks about “we” winding the screw of tomorrow. Is this a reference to his loved one living in on his heart, in a metaphorical sense? Perhaps most of this song is spent revisiting memories, while part of him is trying to move on as others have said? That would explain the fluctuating tense, in a way. It reflects how the singer rises and falls with the emotion in her voice, in a manner similar to track 1, albeit with a more complex, diverse instrumental. Part of me actually wants to say that the singer is perhaps in a meditative state. We do start off in the morning, where he’s contemplating whether to wake up. Perhaps these are the thoughts circling through his mind as he goes through the day. “winding the screw of tomorrow”, I’d imagine, is simply a poetic way of saying he’s trying to find hope and fulfillment in the day to come. I also like the somber reference to dreams with these lines, “we saw / the accumulating dream / Just if, if it only creates / nothing but sad memories”. I see this as a reference to the fact that every time he and the girl have come together in prior songs, they’ve been driven apart by something. In track 6, for example, their dreams diverged even though they started working together. In track 1, they were also driven apart, albeit by unclear circumstances. In track 3, they were driven apart by elements beyond their control (possibly sickness, as Biz theorized on the podcast). His indecisiveness about resolving to move forward with optimism is shown directly afterwards, as he “can’t do anything but to / create memories to embellish them”. In his mind, the only thing his actions can do is try to distract or make light of what happened. The cold hard facts are things, he feels, he can’t change. However, her kind and forgiving spirit motivates him to await the “sunny dream”. Perhaps this him wishing for an afterlife where they can be together, tracing back to his decision to pray in track 7? I also love the reference to the clock, “today my clock chimed again”, a definite callback to track 1. The fact it “chimed again” is clearly a hopeful message, which perhaps ties back to the fact that even in his failure to move on, there’s still a shred of him that holds on to hope as she would have wanted. I mean, when he wound it for the last time, it’s quite the surprise when it happens again. I wonder what it means that the shadow is revolving? If it’s his (which I find likely), I’d imagine this represents his failure to truly press on to life. He moves, but he moves aimlessly and with little conviction. He just can’t muster up the passion without her in his life. I also imagine “looking down to the stars at the frozen sky” is referring to him looking at the sky’s reflection which appears in a frozen lake. “Sunny dream” and the desire for a warm morning is both literal (it’s winter right now) and figurative (he wishes to find joy and happiness again somehow, but he still hasn’t been able to find it. I’m not sure what the color always matching him means, unfortunately. It kind of sticks out to me.
I like how in the last two lines, when he says “But, we are, however, we are,” he trails off and doesn’t quite complete his thought, unlike the earlier mentions. Perhaps, emotionally burnt out, he has resorted to wishing for a better dream once again.
As for the picture, it seems pretty straightforward to me. I imagine this is the boy, sitting at a bench they used to sit at together, and reminsicing about all of their time together after forcing himself out of bed. I say this takes place in the present because of the conspicuous lack of the girl.