If we had a “Which Key character do you identify with?” discussion, I would choose Kengo. I’m often told that I’m pretty strict, serious, averse to childish behavior and also a “party pooper”. But I do join the fray and do silly stuff with my friends when the mood is right.
Of course, I don’t train my body and mind like Kengo does. I don’t have a definite goal in life, something I’m ready to dedicate all of myself to.
I didn’t have the same teenage life as those around me. Not because I was pursuing an important goal. It was simply because I was alone a lot of the time. I only got a taste of what it’s like to enjoy youth three years before graduation.
What makes me relate to Kengo the most is my fear of toiling and suffering pointlessly. I try to use as much of my free time to do things I enjoy. I hate studying and working. It takes away precious time. Studying is something I have the least discipline in. So when I do spend time with those, I don’t want it to be for naught. I didn’t want to end up like the characters of Angel Beats. I want my efforts to bear fruit. To be certain that the times when I did not have fun were still worth it. I don’t want to dedicate several years of my life to something I don’t like that wouldn’t pay out in the end. But life is unpredictable. And something like that did actually happen. Therefore, I always try to do something fun, even if it’s counterproductive, so that even if it all fails, I can still say it wasn’t entirely for naught. That even then, I still had something to enjoy. If possible, I just want to play around all the time. And that’s why, no matter how serious and mature I act, I’m the most childish of them all.
